Being and Nothingness

speaking of periods (topic in ana in college), when i went down to 100lbs, i lost mine for over a year. it wasn't until i went back up to 115lbs that i got it back. i am afraid of losing it again if i go down to 100lbs. any of you out there around 100-ish that still have your periods? i heard that if your body is below a certain weight, it doesn't come and may cause fertility problems in the future. how do you guys manage to keep your systems running during ana? thanks.

sometimes i wonder if i will ever be the person i want myself to be and even if i get there, how will i know because i don't even think i know what i want to be anymore.

i need to stop living in my dreams but i can't because only in them am i perfect.

it is hard to look at others and swallow the simplicity of their lives knowing and resentful about the mess that is my own.

everyone is putting up a fascade anyway, mine might as well be one that i like.

i feel like a 3-D cartoon in a 2-D world.